Darkness

I crawl under my bed seeking for darkness,

I crawl under my bed seeking for security in darkness,

I crawl under my bed wanting the noises in my head to stop,

I crawl under my bed longing for your warm touch,

I may be the clinger,

Could be the whiner, 

But the most I needed you in was the moment I crawled under my bed,

Too close,yet too far is how we are,

distance was nothing between our loving hearts,

distance is everything the moment I stopped hearing your voice,

Yet I crawled under my bed seeking for you, 

seeking for the unknown to bring you to me,

I crawled under my bed wanting you close to me.

My Mottos

Hello there,

Here is a song for you 

This song was sang originally by The Script.. 

Have fun x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YbfeSImDntw&feature=youtu.be

"Life goes on.."
&
" Let it be .."

These are my mottos, lets start with "Life goes on" , you know why do I always say that? Because whatever I do and whatever I say life will keep going on whether I like it or not.

One way or another life is not going to wait for you to recover from your fall, it is not going to stand by your side to pick you up, It will only keep going on, that is life and that is the beauty of it, because it teaches us to stand on our own, to learn how to survive in the most minor cases or worst scenarios, life will keep going on, and what we only have to do in return is to also keep going on.

I find it a selfish act that some people give up on their lives and commit suicide, you might think oh look what could she know about worst things in life, well I have my own demons and own secrets that made me who I am today, I sometimes fall on my bed sobbing my heart out, but then I stand up again knowing that whoever is up there, MEANING GOD !! gave me whatever trials knowing that I can handle them, knowing I will get over them sooner or later, these bad things that happen to us, define us, remember that, but I am not saying that only the bad things that define us, because good things make us appreciate whatever that comes our way...

No matter how hurtful memories are, don't block them, being from the person that you love the most beating you up to death to even a stranger calling you a foul word.. keep it there .. fresh .. let the feelings be there, because the fact the you are actually remembering them and are alive to remember only means you have a chance to be stronger and to not let it happen again, because you are alive, you are not only breathing, but you are living , so make whatever sadness in your life be happiness.

Everything in your life will change eventually if only you take control of your life, remember that whatever is happening to your life is a result of your doings and decisions that you took action on. That is how life goes on, you go on too...

I have learnt this the hard way, and I am more than happy that I did, because I wont be that person that just read a book and figured out things, I am that person who read books and experienced life connected the dots and figured out how things work.

Recently I have been working extra hard on changing my future, Because I for an instant wont allow other people to run my life, to a draw me a path to walk through, whats the use of living if you will only let people not guide you but push you through a path.

The physical pain, the oversleeping, over eating is all a mental thought projecting it into our body, people either become over weight ( like me, but dont worry I am already working on that) or too skinny that it is unhealthy because of what they are feeling, what they are keeping inside. As for me I am going to not go on a diet but eat healthy, I am not going to exercise, I am going to make it a fun habit of dancing, of moving my body, you choose things, choose words, choose actions the way you want them to be for you to like them and for those acts to be easier and more acceptable, it is all in your hands.

and in the end you still have to "let it be" something I got from a Beatles song, you know why because sometimes life gives you happy surprises in return of you turning your life for the better .. you did your best and you know its your best.. let it be by life giving you the best results .. it might not come sooner but it will definitely come later .. as there is a saying that somehow goes like this " If it is not okay, then it is not the end ..."

One final snap to you guys..

Wanna have a better life, start with baby steps and before you know you'll be running a marathon of YOUR life .. <3

Have a wonderful day/ night wanderer x

What is she doing ?

Hello fellow wanderer,

Please what this video, The XX are one of my favorite bands they are timeless ..
 this is their song infinity ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQsUs4yGymM 

In my own ocean of thoughts I came across a thought,
Why was I born in a country in never felt a belonging sense in ?

and then moved on and swan to the answer..

It was cause not that I dint belong, I actually might have once, twice, or even trice, in other words, I do belong sometimes in it, but I don't really feel like I am going to grow older in this country.

I love Bahrain, It's not bad, actually not bad at all, I just know deep down myself that I don't belong, they way my mum knew she had to venture into another country because she had to help her family, but deep down, I know she felt that something else was meant to happen to her, not in her own country but in Bahrain, she was meant to marry dad, and meant to be a mother to me and my sister.

So I work hard, I work hard not to pleasure myself with clubs, drinks, or boys, I work hard to be able to find my happiness in a different country.

Some might think, oh what is she doing ?
why is she working hard to do that to herself while she has a pretty good life where she is..

but have you really asked me?
ME?

Yes I do have a good life,
I eat more than 3 meals a day,
I have got my room
my own phone
my own laptop
almost my own car
I go out
I have alot of people that I know
and few are those my trusted friends

but its different when its your peace of mind that you dont have,
not matter what you have
what you own
once you dont have that peace of mind ...

you have almost nothing ..

So will hopefully be able to venture into the world of ups and downs ..
and somewhere I will find my happiness and peace of mind...

A not so well written introduction about myself

Hello wanderers,

Here's the thing, I made this blog to just write down thoughts whether I rhyme them or not, a friend of mine convinced me enough to start a blog about my thoughts, and have a private diary of myself, since well I dint put up my real name, this blog wont be creating an issue to me.

You can call me rhythm, why rhythm if you may ask, well because I actually like the name, its different, unique as they might say, if I ever have a daughter I would definitely think of naming her Rhythm.

Anyways, I'm a 20-1 years old girl/lady/woman.. whatever you wanna call my gender.. see what I did with my age.. cool ha.. I know I know... I LOVE SINGING, but somehow singing isnt my thing, I get alot of comments saying "oh you've got a nice voice" but why is it that I am not really convinced, I to be honest want to go to singing classes, I want to learn how to play the piano, I want to write music, ahhhh I could go on and on about what I really want to do, People might think, oh see this girl dreaming her heart out just to get it broken , but really doing something you love is the best thing ever, oh you also should know that I am the most random person, I might be talking about something and the next second I'll be switching to the most random thing ever, that could not even be close to the previous topic, btw English isn't my native language, I must state this to you guys, I speak English, Arabic and well Tagalog, you may ask why Tagalog, well because my mum is filipina =D HA ! and guess what I'm a total loser in all of those 3 languages !! what a fail.

anywhooooo, here is the thing, I think way too much, I say sometimes think there is a different human being in my head that is leading another life, but really its just the way I feel and think subconsciously that sometimes surprises me specially when I come to realize what my thoughts were, I even wonder sometimes if they are mine, how do I even come up with such thoughts, but there they are being created in my head by the cooperation of my brain cells that seem to be enjoying each other with thoughts. !

So, please do forgive me, but I am the most random person, you will definitely have a hard time catching up to what I'm saying.. but oh well, I am just being me, the way you are being you.. ;)


Have a good day/ night

I walk alone,

I walk alone by the sea wondering the right and wrong in my thoughts,

Having you by my side was the best thing a broken woman would have,

You picked me up,

Healed me,

Played me pretty well,

But then,

Your presence stopped,

My thoughts came back to haunt,

My head filled with questions,

Statements,

Words,

Just endless words,

You my lover left me walking alone by a sea,

Way back when you were my world, right and wrong was like white and black,

But I just saw gray in everything we did,

Out of the grayness I saw my lover left,

You made me see black and white instead of gray,

You made me wonder the right and wrong in my thoughts,

My lover, your absence woke me up to a cruel reality,

I, as much as I refuse to understand this reality,

Face it with a broken heart,

As a lover of mine has left me with raw emotions,

I walk alone by an open sea,

Goodnight,
P.S picture is not my own,

I try, I really do ...

How can I put this to words?
How do I describe how painful it is to breath when you are broken ?

I do try, 
I try to describe the pain to the people around me through my eyes ..

I try and tell them how painful it is to be lonely in a crowd of happy people..

But how, how do you make them feel the need to be wanted,
to be loved
to be trusted
to be needed
to be you ..

When "YOU" are not even close to being accepted by them,

I try, I really do ...

I try to be happy with my dimples they call me the charmed one,

I try to be loving 
trusting 
needing 
wanting 
and me,

But I in the end, 
is left in a crowd , lonely 
full of belonged to each other people..

I in the other hand, is broken 

The know Charmed rhythm,

Is nothing but a "Broken Charmed Rhythm"


....


Have a lovely day/night x