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A lost soul, raised to dream and wander, raised to love and sacrifice, and mostly raised to wander ,,,

Sunday, 2 June 2013

What is she doing ?

Hello fellow wanderer,

Please what this video, The XX are one of my favorite bands they are timeless ..
 this is their song infinity ..

In my own ocean of thoughts I came across a thought,
Why was I born in a country in never felt a belonging sense in ?

and then moved on and swan to the answer..

It was cause not that I dint belong, I actually might have once, twice, or even trice, in other words, I do belong sometimes in it, but I don't really feel like I am going to grow older in this country.

I love Bahrain, It's not bad, actually not bad at all, I just know deep down myself that I don't belong, they way my mum knew she had to venture into another country because she had to help her family, but deep down, I know she felt that something else was meant to happen to her, not in her own country but in Bahrain, she was meant to marry dad, and meant to be a mother to me and my sister.

So I work hard, I work hard not to pleasure myself with clubs, drinks, or boys, I work hard to be able to find my happiness in a different country.

Some might think, oh what is she doing ?
why is she working hard to do that to herself while she has a pretty good life where she is..

but have you really asked me?
ME?

Yes I do have a good life,
I eat more than 3 meals a day,
I have got my room
my own phone
my own laptop
almost my own car
I go out
I have alot of people that I know
and few are those my trusted friends

but its different when its your peace of mind that you dont have,
not matter what you have
what you own
once you dont have that peace of mind ...

you have almost nothing ..

So will hopefully be able to venture into the world of ups and downs ..
and somewhere I will find my happiness and peace of mind...



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