A not so well written introduction about myself

Hello wanderers,

Here's the thing, I made this blog to just write down thoughts whether I rhyme them or not, a friend of mine convinced me enough to start a blog about my thoughts, and have a private diary of myself, since well I dint put up my real name, this blog wont be creating an issue to me.

You can call me rhythm, why rhythm if you may ask, well because I actually like the name, its different, unique as they might say, if I ever have a daughter I would definitely think of naming her Rhythm.

Anyways, I'm a 20-1 years old girl/lady/woman.. whatever you wanna call my gender.. see what I did with my age.. cool ha.. I know I know... I LOVE SINGING, but somehow singing isnt my thing, I get alot of comments saying "oh you've got a nice voice" but why is it that I am not really convinced, I to be honest want to go to singing classes, I want to learn how to play the piano, I want to write music, ahhhh I could go on and on about what I really want to do, People might think, oh see this girl dreaming her heart out just to get it broken , but really doing something you love is the best thing ever, oh you also should know that I am the most random person, I might be talking about something and the next second I'll be switching to the most random thing ever, that could not even be close to the previous topic, btw English isn't my native language, I must state this to you guys, I speak English, Arabic and well Tagalog, you may ask why Tagalog, well because my mum is filipina =D HA ! and guess what I'm a total loser in all of those 3 languages !! what a fail.

anywhooooo, here is the thing, I think way too much, I say sometimes think there is a different human being in my head that is leading another life, but really its just the way I feel and think subconsciously that sometimes surprises me specially when I come to realize what my thoughts were, I even wonder sometimes if they are mine, how do I even come up with such thoughts, but there they are being created in my head by the cooperation of my brain cells that seem to be enjoying each other with thoughts. !

So, please do forgive me, but I am the most random person, you will definitely have a hard time catching up to what I'm saying.. but oh well, I am just being me, the way you are being you.. ;)


Have a good day/ night

I walk alone,

I walk alone by the sea wondering the right and wrong in my thoughts,

Having you by my side was the best thing a broken woman would have,

You picked me up,

Healed me,

Played me pretty well,

But then,

Your presence stopped,

My thoughts came back to haunt,

My head filled with questions,

Statements,

Words,

Just endless words,

You my lover left me walking alone by a sea,

Way back when you were my world, right and wrong was like white and black,

But I just saw gray in everything we did,

Out of the grayness I saw my lover left,

You made me see black and white instead of gray,

You made me wonder the right and wrong in my thoughts,

My lover, your absence woke me up to a cruel reality,

I, as much as I refuse to understand this reality,

Face it with a broken heart,

As a lover of mine has left me with raw emotions,

I walk alone by an open sea,

Goodnight,
P.S picture is not my own,

I try, I really do ...

How can I put this to words?
How do I describe how painful it is to breath when you are broken ?

I do try, 
I try to describe the pain to the people around me through my eyes ..

I try and tell them how painful it is to be lonely in a crowd of happy people..

But how, how do you make them feel the need to be wanted,
to be loved
to be trusted
to be needed
to be you ..

When "YOU" are not even close to being accepted by them,

I try, I really do ...

I try to be happy with my dimples they call me the charmed one,

I try to be loving 
trusting 
needing 
wanting 
and me,

But I in the end, 
is left in a crowd , lonely 
full of belonged to each other people..

I in the other hand, is broken 

The know Charmed rhythm,

Is nothing but a "Broken Charmed Rhythm"


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Have a lovely day/night x